Much has happened since the last time I was here. I was in my 20s when I wrote my last post and now I’m back, starting the 3rd decade of my existence. Fifteen years ago, I thought I’d be successful by the time I reach this age. Yet, here I am still trying to figure out my life’s purpose.
My line of thought has always been all over the place and I think that’s part of the reason why I can’t make up a certain goal I wish to pursue. I want to move someplace else, I want finish my masters, I want to get married.
There are a lot of things I want but I cannot seem to make the first step towards it. What do I do? I want to move, I don’t have enough money. I want to go back to school, I am not smart enough. I want to get married, I am not interesting enough. I don’t seem to have the means and energy for the things that I want for myself. I live my life on a daily basis. No plans whatsoever. I feel like a stray dog wandering the streets without purpose.