Lost

Much has happened since the last time I was here. I was in my 20s when I wrote my last post and now I’m back, starting the 3rd decade of my existence. Fifteen years ago, I thought I’d be successful by the time I reach this age. Yet, here I am still trying to figure out my life’s purpose.

My line of thought has always been all over the place and I think that’s part of the reason why I can’t make up a certain goal I wish to pursue. I want to move someplace else, I want finish my masters, I want to get married.

There are a lot of things I want but I cannot seem to make the first step towards it. What do I do? I want to move, I don’t have enough money. I want to go back to school, I am not smart enough. I want to get married, I am not interesting enough. I don’t seem to have the means and energy for the things that I want for myself. I live my life on a daily basis. No plans whatsoever. I feel like a stray dog wandering the streets without purpose.

– Lost

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Slip Away

In a world that’s full of strangers, they had reasons to divide us.
I kept trying just to be with you. And the most I was fearing, losing my path from you, happened.
Still, I’ll always remember those precious times with you.

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Singing My Heart Out

Better in Time
Leona Lewis

It’s been the longest winter without you,
I didn’t know where to turn to.
See, somehow I can’t forget you,
After all that we’ve been through.

Going, coming… thought I heard a knock
Who’s there? No one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know,

If you didn’t notice, you mean everything.
Quickly I’m learning to love again,
All I know is, I’m gon’ be okay

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It’ll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV,
Without something that’ll remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?
If I’m dreaming, don’t wanna lie,
Hurt my feelings

But that’s the path
I believe in,
And I know time will heal it
If you didn’t notice, well
You mean everything.
Quickly I’m learning (oooh) to love again,
All I know is I’m gon’ be okay

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It’ll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to, ooooooh
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me (no more you and me)
It’s time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be. (and I know, and I know)
No matter how hard it is,
I’ll be fine without you, Yes I will.

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too ohhhh
It’ll all get better in time ooooh
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It’ll all get better in time, woah

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too, yeahh
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to

Cr: Metro lyrics

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No Frills. Just Love.

No frills.

I am still hurting.

But I think this break-up is doing me some good…
Well, besides the lady mustache…Don’t I look gorgeous?! LOL!

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Pain

Seven years,
six months,
ten days.

I am bitter.
I am insecure.
I am depressed.
I know I am still hurting.

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The Magna Cum Laude

The Magna Cum Laude

I really feel bad that I can’t go home to the Philippines tomorrow. It would have been a great time to be with the family because tomorrow our baby girl will be graduating from college.

I remember you telling Mama that I was your favorite sister even if I am cranky most of the time. So before I sleep, let me tell the whole world how proud I am of you. Forgive me for letting the whole world know how intelligent you are.

VERGELLE ALQUEZA PARROCHA, 22 years old.
Salutatorian, St. Mary’s College, QC. Batch 2004
High Honors, Philippine Science High School, Diliman. Batch 2008

Bachelor of Science in Chemical Engineering at the University of the Philippines, Diliman.
Oblation Scholar (Top 50 in the UPCAT).
DOST Scholar.
Petron Scholar.
Executive Officer for Academic Affairs – UP Academic League of Chemical Engineering Students
MAGNA CUM LAUDE.

Gel, you’ve got the whole package. Beauty and brains, they say. But what I love most about you is that you have the heart. You have a big heart for everyone. You are always ready to help. In everything you do, you don’t just use your head, your heart always plays a part and you never forget to enjoy the moment.
You are God-fearing. And it’s funny how you would ask us to pray for you because you don’t like praying to God just to ask favors.
Chemical Engineering was not a joke and I have seen you in your down days of being a student. But you made it through with much diligence that you absolutely deserve all the honors that you received and will be receiving. I know you know how proud we are of you.
I love you. Be very beautiful tomorrow. Enjoy your graduation. Congratulations. 🙂 -Ate Chi

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Just A Break From A Long Hiatus

and so i’m back…from outer space (outside of cyberspace, i mean).

i had an awesome christmas season with the family and friends. as expected, savings went down the drain. lol. but, of course, i couldn’t complain as i just had the greatest time of my life yet. i was able to meet different groups of friends; went to calapan, puerto galera, and zambales with the family; had a nightly coffee bonding with my sisters; partied with childhood friends; attended countless christmas parties; and had a new BIG puppy!

holidays went by so fast (was that really a 36-day holiday?) and i’m back in jakarta in a blink of an eye. as per usual, leaving home was difficult and i just had a sudden homesickness attack last night. but what can i do? i just have to look at the perks of being here like having too much free time to finish a drama in 3-days and update this blog as often as i can. lol. also, i have june to look forward to again as hun is booked for his visit for our 7th year anniversary <3. yay for love.

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The Superwoman

If you weren’t born on a day like today sometime during the 1950s, many of us won’t be where we are now. Your siblings, your children, even your siblings’ children, you’ve raised all of us well. You’ve been through a lot but you never gave up. It’s one of the things you unconsciously taught us.

I know you’re very much fulfilled already. Maybe not with money, but you are blessed with lots of people who love you, appreciate you, and need you.You might be adding another year to your age but with all the love and happiness you feel everyday, you are aging gracefully. You are still the most beautiful mom in the world.

With everything you’ve endured being a mother, a breadwinner, a military spouse, you are definitely our only superwoman. I love you to infinity and beyond!

Happy Birthday, Mama!

Happy Birthday, Mama!

 

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Bali: Island of Gods…of Peace…of Love

Great news, Manila backpackers! Cebu Pacific finally announced its newest international destination! It will be launching a direct service from Manila to Bali (Yeah! It’s Bali) on March 2013. Ay-yay-yay!

Bali is now super duper accessible to us budget travelers. No need to fly through Jakarta or Singapore or Kuala Lumpur which can also be expensive.

Betcha Buy Bali Now!`

Betcha Buy Bali Now!

No, I am not booking for this flight. It may be cheap, but I still ain’t got breads for this. I’m a cheapskate sometimes. Then, why am I so happy? It only means that Manila-Bali flights can already be included in the great P1 (piso) Seat Sale! Now, that would be something I can afford. Who wouldn’t want to visit the Island of Gods with just less than P3,000 airfare budget?

Ayo, teman-teman, mari kita mengalami budaya Bali dwipa jaya. (Come, friends, let us experience the culture of the great Bali island.)

“In Bali, there is no single day without a ceremony — a balanced relationship among humans, gods, and nature.”

 

 

Disclaimer: I suck in speaking Bahasa Indonesia. I used an online English-Indonesian translator and asked my friend if I stated it correctly.

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Procrastinating

It’s three in the morning and I’m still wide awake. I have to start getting ready for school/work by 6am. I should also mention that I just ended the long weekend. No classes since Thursday because of Islamic New Year. I wasn’t able to do anything productive since last Thursday from watching too much videos of Lee Min Ho’s Fun Meet in the Philippines.

Why am I still up? I just finished cramming progress report comments of 17 kids (That will be comments on 4 skills for 17 kids) to be checked by my principal. No deadline for this but I have to submit it for checking before I can encode it and add pictures in the tedious progress portfolio.

Cramming - the result of procrastinating

Cramming – the result of procrastinating

Well, it’s a good thing that I was able to finish. Finished with the comments, I mean. More work lined up until the end of the month. Though, I wouldn’t complain because I’ll be home soon!

Oh, the life of a fan girl! @_@

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